Lets get started

Well this is my first time trying to blog so we will see how it goes.  I wanted to start by giving you a little background about me and what this blog will be about. Basically this will be a place where I will post my rationale for being "one and done" in the Child department. You see I always wanted two children but as more of my life/family drama unfolds I am slowly convincing myself that maybe I would be OK with just one. I have struggled with infertility and when i mean "struggled" i mean it took 20 months with the assistance of medication and a reproductive endocrinologist, some of those months with not so comfortable and invasive appointments and procedures.  But in the grand scheme of Infertility I got off easy,  I have friends who have undergone way more expensive, invasive procedures, and heartaches and still don't have a take home baby.  So in a way I feel like i am tempting fate by asking to try all over again. I look back on how I was during the "struggle" and I didn't like who I became because of the meds, disappointments and jealousy. SO one of the main reasons that i really don't want to sign up for it all over again. Part of me thinks that if I decided that i am done having children that i will have closure and that it won't be as hard than if I go through treatments for a second and it doesn't happen.  Well I will try and log in regularly and update with my thoughts.